Blog Reawakening!

Wow, I need to start using this resource I have here at my fingertips…

I have a medium that is a journal, a therapist, a sounding board, a bulletin board, a recipe keeper…

What do you use your blog for?

My goal this week is to start using my blog as the tool I know it can be. Menus, recipes, complaints, successes, anything… here we go!

On Humans and Inertia

As I was sitting here trying to formulate my status update for how I’m feeling, I went through several versions:

1)Well, at least today will have been productive

2)Hopefully I can keep up this level of productiveness all day!

3)Today will be awesome! Tomorrow may suck though.

4) Tomorrow I will be a blob melted on the couch. Today, I’ve given up that chance already.

5)….

And so on. As I was thinking these through, I started thinking that actually, I’ll probably have a pretty productive day tomorrow too. Because I’m not even “supposed” to be awake for another 3 hours, and I’ve already been up and put in a work out, am writing a blog post, will be making a quiche shortly (YUM), etc., all BEFORE Rosie gets up for the day. And once she’s up, I don’t have the option of going back down. So, I’ll sleep really well tonight, and be wide awake at 5 am tomorrow too.

Oh Joy.

No, I’m kidding. I started thinking that it was amazing that now that I’m up and moving and accomplishing things, I don’t really want to stop and take a break. But those days in my mid 20s when all I wanted to do was sleep, smoke pot, and go to work when I had to? I think I was stuck in that too. Your body and mind just want to keep doing whatever it is you are already doing, because that is the easiest state for it. Maintenance is always easier than changing.

So now, I’m going to challenge myself to change my patterns just a little bit. One day at a time. Until I find that no longer am I changing patterns and living with discomfort, but I am maintaining patterns and behaviors I want and am simply comfortable. How’s that for an early morning epiphany?

OMG the time my meds take!

Trust me, I’m not complaining. I don’t think I COULD complain about something that not only made me lose 165 lbs (thus far) BUT ALSO gave me my life back. Scratch that. It gave me a life that I had never really dreamed was possible.

BUT… And this is a BIG but…. it takes me SO EFFING LONG to set up my medications each month. I have spent 1 1/2 hours setting them up for the month already, and have only done half of them.

Ok, I say medications, but I really mean vitamins. Because of the 19 different pills I take on a daily basis, to a total of 58 1/2 individual pills or capsules each day, only 3 medications consisting of 4 1/2 pills are prescription. And of those, I could get 1 over the counter, but it’s cheaper to get a prescription for it and only pay a co-pay.

Why have I only done half of them, you ask? Because I take so many pills that I have to divide them into 2 batches at each “med time”, which occur 4 times each day. I will NEVER advocate WLS to someone who can not or does not comprehend the effort, cost and vitamin supplementation required to stay healthy after WLS.

So, I’ve filled my “small” containers, which hold all of my pills that act like pills, not capsules. You see, capsules tend to float in your mouth, and so you need to look at your feet in order to swallow them effectively. The pills sink to the bottom of the liquid, and so you need to inspect the ceiling in order to swallow those.

And for those in a tight money spot, realize that if you ever have to choose between food for your family and vitamins for yourself for a month, you may choose your family. If it is any longer than that, you MUST CHOOSE YOURSELF, or your family WILL be burying you, and sooner than you think, too. Choosing between funeral expenses and food, your family will feel the guilt of not giving you a “proper send-off” and will starve themselves anyway. And so, you will have died for nothing. You think I’m kidding. I AM NOT.

Much, much more to come on this subject later. But please, any questions, let me know, and I’ll do my best to explain.

The Rattling In My Brain…

So, this past weekend my mother told me she thought I should start a blog. “But I would want to write about too many things!” I said. “But I’m not a great writer!” I said. “But what do I have to contribute?” I said. And then, I actually listened to the responses I got.

“So, write about what you want!” Well, that thought never really occurred to me. I could never pick one topic to write a blog about. I’m too darn passionate about too many things in life to choose one (or two, or three).

“That’s the thing about blogs, you just have to have a conversation with the page!” Guess I never really thought about that. But really, the blogs I enjoy the most are the ones that make me feel as if I’m having a conversation with an old friend, not the ones that feel like an essay written for a mid level college english class.

“You contribute your passions. Just because there are a lot of them, it doesn’t mean that someone else won’t appreciate what you have to say.” So, now that I’ve come to terms with the fact that I may never have an expansive readership, I am more comfortable with the thought of writing for me and those like me, instead of writing to attract an audience.

I plan on writing about a ton of things, some of which include, in the order that they popped into my head: parenting, food, happiness, love, passion, weight loss surgery, medical things, learning, reading, cuddling, pets, home ownership, money, and generally living life at whatever age I happen to be at the time of the specific post.

I look forward to emptying out some of the things that are rattling around in my brain, and perhaps educating and/or entertaining some people along the way.